Sunday, May 10, 2009

What am I really made of?

Realizations.
I know things like this would happen.
But still, that is the moment I’m most afraid of.
When you finally wake up and see the facts.
That is the fact weather you accept it or not.
It just comes, weather you are prepared or not.
You are out of control.
Human change.
Colors fade.
And the brains just think by itself.
Who will sleep forever?
Different you in ever stage of life.
Ever predict whom the person you are becoming?
Does it counts on every day’s routine?
People don’t know when and how they have change.
Where is the tweaked point?
Who do you expect to accept you?
When you’re not prepared to accept yourself.
What am I really made of?
Wondering when you’ve changed.
If there’s a power supply for Feelings…
I will shut it down, without having a second thought.
If there’s a way, to choose what to feel…
Like an option of coffee or tea?
There’s a feeling which you are suppose to have,
The feeling that will please every one once you owned it.
But, you are not having it.
There’s something, which you really hope it will stay.
But, the fact is, nothing stays forever.
Nothing is going to be enough.
Ever said “I’ll not change.” “I’ll not leave” out loud?
What will happen when you are the one who’ve changed?
Or the first one to leave the game?
Will you blame yourself for the rest of your life?

3 comments:

Alvin Ho Wen Ping said...

wat is that?? So long...lazy to read la.

Jitzu said...

Those with choices are complaining for there are too many options. If there's no option, then there'll be no preference. Just live it to the full. Look back only to smile at it but not regret over it.

If you can have the option to choose to have feeling or to not, then you'll probably find yourself in dilemma on whether to take it with feeling or to not. Am I too fake or to soft-hearted? What kind of 心态 am I gonna use to face this situation?

Having options is training skill and thinking ability. Having no option is training endurance, adaptation, power to overwhelm and heart of acceptance. Importance? Weight it yourself.

Human are human, weaknesses are predicted. Just don't promise or swear over anything. Let your yes be yes, and your no no. The act of promising or swearing is just plainly framing up yourself, creating a border to compress you to a restricted life. Why?

Aster Ng said...

lol~ yes, teacher